I’m sorry I’ve negelcted my blog lately, and I do plan to start writing more regularly now. I have been so grumpy, I assume because my body is doing some freaky things hormonally, and now I have to go to the GYN. Great… My entries would have been pretty boring and full of complaints, so I just didn’t write. AND, you’re welcome.
So, here’s the story…
In the past, I have suffered from depression, and have even taken medication for it. About two years ago, I decided I wouldn’t take medication any more. For ME, it wasn’t helping. I decided to lean on Jesus and pray when I was down. I’ve learned when I’m getting grumpy to turn it around with something funny or silly. I also take time for myself, whether it’s a nice bath or running errands alone. I haven’t had an episode since the summer of 2005, praise God.
The past 2-3 weeks have been really dark for me. I have yelled, screamed, cried and generally been mad at everyone I have come into contact with. I’ve been overwhelmed and frustrated.
I finally found myself in tears pleading with Jesus to take the sadness away from me, to get me through this hard time. And He has. I’m feeling much better now and I thank my Heavenly Daddy for that. He scooped me up in His arms and held me tight.
“Oh no, You never let go
through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, you never let go of me”
I’m glad you’re feeling better.
I’ve never had serious depression but about 5 years ago I had some depression problems and it’s not fun. I hope things continue to improve for you!!
I happened upon your blog today, and read this post. I’ve been there too. It’s a very dark place: depression. I’m better now, and finally not on any medication. I worried that after the birth of my fourth, I would have to get right back on it, but thankfully I’ve been fine. And it’s been three months since I had him. Thanks for sharing your heart.
[...] This One’s For Jennifer… May 2nd, 2007 — homeschoolmama My sweet friend Jennifer wanted “some entertainment” and was bummed that I hadn’t written in a while. She said, “I know your kids have done something funny lately!” I was trying so hard to think of something, but I couldn’t come up with anything. It was probably because I’ve been in such a bad mood lately… [...]
Thank you both for visiting. It’s nice to be back to myself again. It’s been 2 years since I had a problem, so I had forgotten how yuck it feels. Thanks for reading!